Met ~ a ~ mor ~ pho ~ sis
Met ~ a ~ mor ~ pho ~ sis
This past year I had been feeling called to hold a ceremony,
to make a vow of gratitude and service to the Divine
for my journey until now, and my journey forward.
Even though I understand the Divine plan and I know I’m part of the Rainbow bridge, and I know we’re going to shift everything and that this is all part of our collective growth.... the weight of the reality of the state of our world can feel heavy. You can’t turn on the news or facebook without having it right in your face. I’m an open hearted empath and I was in grief A LOT.
Seeing injustice with my own eyes… knowing the truth of life on the reservations is a stone in my heart. I love my relatives so deeply and I want to take all their suffering away.. They are my family now, and when I came back home, I had a really difficult time integrating back into my life. No one understood except those of us who called the camps at standing rock Home. I had a hard time seeing so much wealth around me, knowing the reality of Prison camps that still exist in a country that believes itself the “land of the free and the brave”.
I was going through another dark night of the soul. This time it was a grieving for the entire collective.
All beings. All plants. All 4 leggeds. All winged ones. All humans.
I felt torn between two worlds and part of me felt like I wasn’t in my total Truth.
I made a date for my ceremony on the new moon in Scorpio and I was honestly very excited about it. I found myself giving thanks for my hair every day. In the shower, before bed… I brushed it every day and gave it so much love. I braid my hair every day, I have for as long as I can remember. Knowing we were about to part ways, I slowed down and appreciated every stroke of each braid. And because I love Braiding Sweetgrass so much, I thought of the prayer of braiding sweetgrass and my relationship to my hair and to nature.
On the morning of my ceremony, grief came into my room. All kinds of grief came up. And I allowed in to sit with me. Our hair holds great power. It holds our past. Mine held so much grief, all the years of drugs I put into my system, all the hair dye that masked my silver streaks. I got my first gray hair when I miscarried and soon after my hair began to turn silver all over. All that grief came into my room with me that morning and we sat together. I thanked them for all they had taught me and I let them go in love.
I wanted to take a few pictures of my hair before I cut it and when I turned the camera on myself I couldn’t hold back the tears. So I captured that, because it is my Truth and I’m not afraid of it anymore. Loving the “old Sarah” and the “new Sarah” and whatever “Sarah” is yet to be revealed is how I can integrate it ALL and serve from a place of peace and love.
I serve the army of Light. I am stardust and Light and I’m returning to my natural state of Being, pure and reborn into my power and magic. I’m doing my best to give up anything that no longer serves my highest good because it no longer serves the highest good of the collective. I’m not perfect and I don’t intend to be. But I do want to keep evolving and growing and I want to see the whole world turn their faces to the sun in peace and love.
Its been a few weeks since my ceremony and I feel SO FREE!
I know we can heal ourselves and each other... the power is in OUR hands ... it’s in our HEARTS! Our beautifully, perfect, Divine hearts.
May the Great Law of Peace and Love rule again in all hearts!!
Love rules the kingdom without a sword.
I love y’all!!
Here’s to my inner GI Jane integrating with my inner Rainbow Brite!!